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I do have to pat myself on the back for taking the first dramatic step - actually starting a diet and exercise program. This is the first "official" diet I have been on. I really never indulged in any other programs because I thought that it would all snap back one day and that this was a phase my body was going through. Well at least that is what I told myself as my weight increased and my waistline inflated, "youll fit back into those 32s in no time, dont worry about it!" Well...now was my time to worry. Barely being able to put on size 38 pants and having my belt buckle rub against my tummy because it hangs over the waistband is not at all comfortable or attractive. I was seriously starting to think that maybe Pajama Jeans or sweats were my only hope.
The ultimate wake up call was at my yearly physical, when my awesome doctor told me that if my cholesterol level does not decrease in the next three months and I cant control it on my own, through diet and exercise, than he would have to put me on medication. Thats what did it - what made the light bulb go off in my head and stomach. I dont want to be on any medication, I pride myself that I dont take any prescription medication. Now, I just want to get back to a respectable weight and possibly gain a better looking body in the process. My goal when I turned 40 was to be the best shape in my life and Im finally starting down that road almost two years later...see procrastination.
CHEATING
This "chemical diet" that I have been on has been amazing. I dont at all feel hungry or light headed and even though I CRAVE, okay SECRETLY WOULD STAB SOMEONE IN THE NECK FOR, sweets, breads, sodas, I have not had the temptation to sneak one...so I am not a cheater in that sense as the title of the blog may convey. What I was cheating on was weighing myself before Sunday! I was told I should only weigh myself once a week. I weighed myself today and I am a little shocked that I have lost over 10 pounds in just 4 days. Incredible, but I am also attributing it to the amount of water that I have peed out of my system by guzzling 10+ glasses of water a day! I am thrilled beyond belief and also a little fearful. You dont understand...I have not seen 226 in almost two years. However, I should have just waited until Sunday to do it, now I am gitty to see how much I lose daily - though I will try to get back on track with that aspect of the game as well. WEIGH YOURSELF ONLY ONCE A WEEK!
FEAR
My biggest fear with this weight loss is that I have really not worked out the way that I should. I mean sure Ive done a session or two of Wiis Just Dance 2, Anthony loves seeing my do the Beyoncé Crazy in Love number, and Ive taken long walks on the beach with the family...but neither constitutes a real workout. Neither helps tighten and tone or builds any sort of muscle on my body. Okay so I am sweating it out with the Wii game, but I still think I need to increase. I am afraid that the weight loss that this diet promises to do will equate to saggy skin so I need help in making sure I am tightening up the body parts too in the process! Yes, I am very fearful that my fat induced belly will turn in to a big floppy thing in the middle of my body. NOT SO Daniel Craig or Christopher Meloni.
If there are any trainers out there wanting to have a gratis project but the bragging rights of turning me from this Flabby mess to an Ultra Hot dad - call me! I need help (can you hear my call for help) in transforming my outer body in the right way and making sure that I am developing correctly too. So, if you are a trainer, preferably in the Santa Barbara area, male (but not required) - I need eye candy for motivation...Im just sayin, I am up for the challenge! Whip me into shape! Heres my body goals - 32" or 34" waist (which ever looks better with the overall appearance), removable of belly and love handles - basically, an overhaul of the mid section, bigger pecs (so the upper half protrudes forward more that the mid half), more defined arms, and an increase in the booty department would help too (I got my dads butt and its flat as flat can be). My legs are pretty fabulous so I dont really need help there. Any takers...come on you know you want to help me!
Fear #2 is...what happens next! Do I actually change me eating habits after this first month of "chemical dieting" or will I fall into that category of gaining all the weight back and then some. For this, I think I need community support and making sure that I have the right motivation to change my eating habit permanently. I also need to learn how to eat the things that are bad for me in moderation. I dont want to fall back in to that place where 2-3 cupcakes constitute a snack or that a dessert after dinner equates to a pint of Ben & Jerrys ice cream - though the thought makes my mouth water at the moment! The questions that swirl in my head are:
- So, what happens after this diet phase?
- What can I do to permanently change my eating habits?
- Will this really give me the tools to make sure that I am choosing the right foods for me?
- Am I learning to enjoy the foods that I love in moderation?
- How do I make sure that I keep an active lifestyle?
I think that saying, the only thing to fear is fear itself plays a part here. Maybe, I should stop fearing and looking at what could/might happen and just do what my body tells me feels right. People often say to listen to your body and it will tell you what it needs - I havent been listening to it very well. I know it boils down to doing what I can today and it will contribute to my well being tomorrow. But seriously, FLABULOSA needs to get the workout piece in check because that will only help with this road to wellness.
So moving into the "weekend of anxiety" (read yesterdays post), I am confident that I can make it through the bacchanalia of festivities and food. Stay the course is the motto for the weekend. Someone suggested that I should have a reward program for myself for meeting my goals - and I think thats a great plan, just not sure how I would reward myself. Any suggestions that does not involve food? Looking at the overall picture, though, feeling and looking good are well earned rewards. One thing I know for sure...when I hit my goal weight and body - Im going on a shopping spree!
Todays Facts
Weighed in at: 226.5 (remember to only weigh in once a week - I cheated)
Pounds lost since 1/17/11: 10.5 lbs
What I ate today for lunch: A scramble of ground sirloin with spinach accented with olive oil, lemon juice, garlic salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper.
How I am feeling: FANTASTIC!
Thanks again for reading my ramblings and to those taking this journey with me let me know how I can support you!
-Percy
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